October 14, 2009

Choices

No one is ever born as a hero, although some are born with the weight of the world on their shoulders. It is not a fancy suit you put on when no one is looking, it is not a honor you are looking to get. Radio-active spiders will not make us strong, in the best case scenario it would leave us with a whole lot of dead spiders. Heroes don't fly however high the pedestal we want to place them on. Being a hero, is not about doing the impossible, it is about doing the possible on intuition. Being a hero, it is all about choice.

Choices. We write them off as sheer luck, or perhaps coincidence. But actually we make choices all day long. Shall we go left or right? Drink tea or coffee? Do I start the diet today or tomorrow? It is not about weaknesses, it is very much about emotions and control. What do we let guide our choices? The emotions? Intuition? Or do we take control? And most of all, are we ready to take the consequences?

Every day new heroes rise when others fall. And while we watch the fake lives of our dramatic heroes, those heroes pass us by, most of the time unnoticed. And when it was noticed, for most of us it was easily forgotten. Because sometimes we prefer to live in a life of fantasy and that is not something I prefer to discourage. Cause the beauty of the moment, where in someone choose to be good, leaves a mark on someone else's life. That mark will become like when we throw a stone into water. It will ripple out. And with all the ripples that come to be, someday it will turn into a storm.

So here is it: We are on the brink of a decision. What kind of choice do we make and what kind of storm do we want to create? Cause little things are not trivial, they matter. The world is not a bad place, we make the world into a good or bad place, and we choose to perceive it to be good or bad. I am not here to tell you about the choices you need to make. I just ask of you, make your choices wisely.

Image © Nenya

October 8, 2009

The ego of spirituality

The society is opening his eyes. In the million of years it existed, it has gone into a wintersleep in the last few thousand of it. But you can not sleep away your life, you can only sleep away time. And it will never make something go away. Eventually you need to open your eyes and see the person you have become and the world around you. But there are many who want to sleep, and there are still many who are not awake, and just dreaming. The spiritual addict.

That particular part of denial is scarier then people who love their luxurious lives and do not give a shit about the world, only money money money. Hell they might be the biggest asses sometimes, but those people are honest. Their motived laying before you, poored out like some sticky syrup. It's annoying but it is nothing more then that. Their view of the world is different from yours and vica versa, but you have a common understanding. Don't bug eachother with it, and it is all cool.

But then you have found yourself talking to the biggest bigot of all times, all of a sudden. The so called open minded people that will tell you exactly how all you do is wrong and all they do is right. The spiritual addict who use books for their quick fixes, and the messages in there the way they see fit, for every wrong purpose. The messages never once intwined in their soul. The ones that awoke with their eyes firmly shut and not even once opened for other messages. Not only the big religions have those people, no, spirituality has them as well.

I wish I could tell them: “My love, I can't give you what you want. I was never meant to give you what you want. I was only here, perhaps to give you what you need. Don't take what I don't owe you. And I will not play by your rules.” But the ego won't listen and some of them are so particularly smooth. Some of them don't want to be the bad guy but they are. They will break you down because you don't believe what they believe. They will break you down and feed on your energy. Use your weaknesses for their own benefits and then wash their hands in innocence. And then you are the blame for any negativity coming from their own actions. But it doesnt work like that. The world doesnt work like that.

Be a mirror. Mirror their own negativity back towards them and keep your energy to yourself. Despite the sweet words they want to feed you, don't take a bite. Don't ever let someone tell you, that you are wrong for seeing it your way, or that you are unworthy. 'Cause what you believe is yours and yours only. It's in your heart, no, it is your heart and whatever makes your heart radiate can never once be wrong. You can never be wrong when you feel it into the core of your soul and it makes it sing.

You see, no one but you is responsible for your happiness and you are not responsible for theirs. So don't ever feel like you are. There is only one person set on the world to please everyone, and that is themselves. Fulfill your own needs and when you do just that, none can beat that feeling. And the ego will never once win.....

This is my message for those spiritual addicts that had entered my life and got away with it: “Don't you ever use me again to hurt yourself. I don't need you. You are not my guide. You are not my counselor. I am like the Phoenix. You can burn me, turn me into ashes but I will always rise again. You don't have all the answers, when you have to flip the pages of someone else their work to tell me. And you can't feel what they mean. When you lay your hand on my mouth to keep the words from coming out, you still haven't close up the source. You are not me. I am not you. And I see you. I see all inside you. And I know the truth? Does it scare you when I tell you that? Does it make you lie awake at night? Do you still dream?

And do you still dare to open your eyes?”